Most of the girls are anorexic. They’re called guests with food issues. Some are druggies. They’re called guests with substance abuse issues. The rest like me, are assorted psychos. We’re called guests with behavioral issues. The nurses are called attendants. And the place is a residential treatment facility. It is not called a loony bin. - CUT by Patricia McCormick

I’ve just finished reading that book. I bought it at a book sale in Gensan, it was only P55.00, a bargain. The book caught my attention first. Why? First of all, the book cover was nice, at first glance; you’ll guess what the book is about. (see the cover? agree with me?)

Cut is about girl named Callie, she’s in a rehab place, I think. It’s called “Sea Pines”. As have read above, she describes the place as that, and in what I’ve observed while reading this book, well, I agree with her.

I don’t really get it. Why are there people with anorexia? Why are they so pissed about their weight? How do they stop themselves from eating? Why do they starve themselves to death? So many questions I can’t answer. *sigh*

The druggies? No doubt about that. As expected, there will always be teenagers like that; addicted to drugs that make them feel better for only a while, then make them suffer for a lifetime. *sigh* again

About Callie, she’s a psycho; obsessed with cutting her wrist. I don’t get her either. Why cut your wrist? Can’t you stop it? *puzzled* At first, Callie gives everyone her “silent treatment”, you know, not talking to anyone, anywhere, anytime. (that’s hard, well, for me I guess. LOL) But she eventually garnered enough strength to open her mouth and talk to people.

When she talks to this, I dunnow, attendant I think, all she utters about is her brother, (Her brother is sick; he has asthma, a serious case of asthma. Poor little boy. Hmp) about her being the reason why her brother gets sick often, why her mother is always tired, why her dad has to work overtime to earn more money for them. *sigh*

I dunnow how old Callie is exactly, it doesn’t tell in the book. All I know is she’s below 18, and a teenager. But why is her life like that? I’m still confused on why she keeps cutting her wrist.

In Sea Pines, knives, blades, and anything that’s sharp is strictly prohibited. But Callie has already cut her wrist in there twice (according to the book). She’d utilize anything and make it a weapon to cut herself. She used an aluminum plate once. Talk about desperate. Boy oh boy. Reckless huh? I feel sorry for her though. *sniffles*

Callie also ran away from Sea Pines, I dunnow why exactly but I think she missed her family a lot. She called her dad, and her dad went out to get her. They were about to go home but Callie decided to go back to Sea Pines. She decided that she wants to get better; to overcome her addiction; to become a healthier person.

I wonder, what it feels like, I mean, cutting your own wrist. Of course, it hurts ayt? But, from the book, I examined that after cutting her wrist, Callie felt awesome; satisfied; like she was alive once more. How is that? You’re in between dying, and you feel awesome? Weird. I don’t get it. Really.

It makes me wanna try and cut myself too. (seriously, it does) I want to know how it feels too; if it really does feel awesome. And so I won’t be perplexed anymore. I wonder what’ll happen to me if I attempt to cut my wrist. Will I also be put in a rehab just like Sea Pines? I wonder…