moving on..

I'm running as fast as I can; running away from all the pain. Its torturing me again; our past, our memories. We were so happy then, nothing could ever stop us from loving each other. Others even thought of us as the perfect couple, they were merely idolizing us. What happened to us anyway? What happened to you?

Its all coming back to her again. Him, him, him. She kept thinking about him. All day, and all night. Yea, she said she's moving on, but its not that easy. She loved him so much. So so much. It takes time to heal a deep wound. It takes time to let go of all those memories. It takes time to jeopardize the love she has for him. She hates to admit it, but yes, she's still on the process of moving on, and not even half way of it.

He did come back for her, several times I should say. But still, she said “no” for she fears of having her heart broken again, she fears of being called as a “martyr” again, she fears of making herself look stupid again.

Others think that she already moved on. But no, she's still trapped from her past. It really isn't that easy. Really. She acts like nothings wrong and it doesn't hurt when she sees him with his new girl. She's a pretender, a very good one I guess. No one really knows what she truly feels except for her (and God). Coz she keeps all the hurt and the pain inside. A smile can hide everything anyway.

I shouldn't do this to myself. I shouldn't be all miserable because of him. He's gone, gone, gone. Totally gone.

After months of acting like a sad loner girl pretending to be a freaky bubbly girl, she finally let go of HIM. FINALLY. Yes, this time it's real. She isn't pretending to be the freaky bubbly girl anymore, coz this time, she ain't fakin her smiles no more. That's good for her.

Bye bye damn boy, buhbye!

And hello hallelujah, hello hello.

To be continued.....

NOTE : This may or may not be a true story. :)) Take note, i love to imagine things. :))

P.S : “damn boy” is ______'s screen name. (coz he's so damn.)

“hallelujah” is ______'s screen name. (coz he's God fearing. And I extremely love the song hallelujah by Paramore. :) )

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