Labels: giving up, love, songs

“One day your prince will come. Mine just took a wrong turn, got lost and too stubborn to ask for directions.” (tagged from quotebox ni vea)

Yea, all ii know is that he's out there. Somewhere.

Hello hello. My sincere apologies for being offline these past couple of days. Eventually, a lot of things happened since my damn headache:

Friday, May 8 2009

– another headache. But my cousins came here, so ii was fine, I had fun with them. My parents went to Davao, and they arrived here by night, and lucky me Mama bought me a new book; the book I was so dying for; One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Marquez. Thanks Ma! xoxo

Saturday, May 9 2009

– and yet, another headache, can you believe it, 3days straight of having headaches?! OMG. I hope this ain't a migraine. Wooo. Nothing exciting happened that day, just pure reading, reading and reading. Read, read, and read even if my head was hurting.

Sunday, May 10 2009

- Mother's Day! Woohooo. I went to church at 8 in the morning, and yet again, I was all alone, no one bothered to come with me. Poor me. (sigh) But after church, I went to the nearest flowershop to buy my Mama and Lola a bouquet of roses. Weee. Happy Mother's Day Ma, La. I LOVE YOU. (well, the last part, I never really got to say that though.) Oh btw, I woke up with an extremely sore throat that day, and I mean extremely. I merely even spoke a word that day. Oh, the house was so quiet. But, I got sick by late afternoon. (sniff)

Monday, May 11 2009

– Happy Birthday Kim! (sniff) I couldn't go to her place coz of this stupid lagnat. So loathesome. (sniff) I still had a sore throat, but I was feeling a lot better than the day before.

Today, May 12 2009

-Nothing happened today. Just a lot of reading. Btw, i'm half way through my book. Weee. I so love the story. Two thumbs up! And oh, I also played Restaurant City, level 20. weee. Yehey! :)) thanks to Spiderpig. :))

Oh, I have something to tell you, Love Story will be as it is for the moment. Due to some complications with my life these days, I ain't in the mood of telling stories. Sorry for the inconvenience.

Till here pre. :))

P.S thanks for all the comments. :))

Labels: bookworm, family, headaches, love

moving on..

I'm running as fast as I can; running away from all the pain. Its torturing me again; our past, our memories. We were so happy then, nothing could ever stop us from loving each other. Others even thought of us as the perfect couple, they were merely idolizing us. What happened to us anyway? What happened to you?

Its all coming back to her again. Him, him, him. She kept thinking about him. All day, and all night. Yea, she said she's moving on, but its not that easy. She loved him so much. So so much. It takes time to heal a deep wound. It takes time to let go of all those memories. It takes time to jeopardize the love she has for him. She hates to admit it, but yes, she's still on the process of moving on, and not even half way of it.

He did come back for her, several times I should say. But still, she said “no” for she fears of having her heart broken again, she fears of being called as a “martyr” again, she fears of making herself look stupid again.

Others think that she already moved on. But no, she's still trapped from her past. It really isn't that easy. Really. She acts like nothings wrong and it doesn't hurt when she sees him with his new girl. She's a pretender, a very good one I guess. No one really knows what she truly feels except for her (and God). Coz she keeps all the hurt and the pain inside. A smile can hide everything anyway.

I shouldn't do this to myself. I shouldn't be all miserable because of him. He's gone, gone, gone. Totally gone.

After months of acting like a sad loner girl pretending to be a freaky bubbly girl, she finally let go of HIM. FINALLY. Yes, this time it's real. She isn't pretending to be the freaky bubbly girl anymore, coz this time, she ain't fakin her smiles no more. That's good for her.

Bye bye damn boy, buhbye!

And hello hallelujah, hello hello.

To be continued.....

NOTE : This may or may not be a true story. :)) Take note, i love to imagine things. :))

P.S : “damn boy” is ______'s screen name. (coz he's so damn.)

“hallelujah” is ______'s screen name. (coz he's God fearing. And I extremely love the song hallelujah by Paramore. :) )

Labels: love

What ever happened to our happily ever after?

She’s crying like it’s the end of the world. Boohoo, poor girl. The love of her life just waved her goodbye last night. And no, of course it wasn’t “good”bye. Damn boy, she shouldn’t have loved him so much. And now, it hurts like hell! See? She’s been crying for hours now, but still, her tears are not getting lesser. Uh-oh.

What the hell did ii do wrong? I mean, I did everything for you; I even swallowed my pride for you. I accepted you’re sins. I accepted YOU. But why? Why are you giving up on me? Isn’t it supposed to be the other way around? Why?

Nostalgia? Yea, she’s been going through that every single second. Painful? Yeah right, of course it is. Everything, yes everything just makes her think about him; those sweet memories. She thought they were meant to be; that he was the one; that nothing or no one could ever break them. But unfortunately, she thought wrong. They were NOT meant to be, he was NOT the one, and SOMEONE could break them.

I hate her! B*tch of all b*tches! I thought she was my friend; my ate nevertheless. What a traitor! Go to hell!

Yep, it was SOMEONE. She hated that someone, so much. Slapping her and punching her would make her feel a million times better. But, she couldn’t do that. Realization is the key. She realized that the boy isn’t worth it.

After a month of crying rivers of tears, and suffering from depression, she finally decided to move on; continue living; and live her life to the fullest. Her friends helped her along the way. She also met new friends, whom also helped her recover. She learned so many lessons, and yes, she accepted it, wholeheartedly.

She then met someone else. He made her realize that, that damn boy isn’t the only guy in the whole universe. He made her smile, always. He made her laugh, he made her happy. :))

God must have sent him to me for a reason; to make me believe that there’s more to life than just that damn boy.

The damn boy came back after 2 months. He asked her if they could see each other; if they could talk again; clear things; start again. She hesitated at first. Confused. Will she accept the offer? She did, and then after several months, they talked again. He’s skinnier than ever. What happened to him? She thought. At first, they chatted about their current life, school, and etc. But then, the damn boy asked a question; the question she greatly feared. “Can you give me another chance?” the damn boy questioned. His eyes were starting to dwell in tears, he looked doubtfully hopeful, and he was wearing a buoyant smile.

Ha? What?! After what you’ve done to me! After all those things you made me go through! After hurting me like hell!! After making me accept that we’re gone! After making me move on with life! Just like that? You unexpectedly come back, and ask me that pathetic question! Who the hell are you?! *sigh* I already gave you all the chances you need, but YOU, yea YOU gave up on me! Screw you! I can go on with my life without you. LOSER.

But, she hates to admit it; she still loves him. But no, it’s nothing like before. She ain’t giving him another chance. Why would she anyway? She’s been through enough already. She’s moving on.

Tears are now running down my eyes. He wiped it. Then I looked at him. Oh God, I still love him. I have a choice to make; to give him another chance or to tell him to leave my life. I couldn’t really make up my mind when he’s right in front of me. So I’m deciding to tell him my decision next week.

She’d tell him her final decision a week later. But, after only two days, she made her decision already. SHE’S NOT GIVING HIM ANOTHER TRY. That’s that.

There they are, talking once again, or maybe it’s the last time they’ll ever talk to each other. This is it. Judgment day. She took a deep breath, then told him her last and final decision. “AYOKO NA”, she said. And to make this short, the boy cried, he insisted on letting himself have another chance. But she made her decision, and it’s final. Tears were already filling up her eyes; she doesn’t want to cry in front of him again.

I looked away, and wiped my tears. No, I am not crying because of him again. He’s just not worth it anymore.

The boy got angry at her. He threw the wallet and the handkerchief that she gave to him before. And left her there alone, looking puzzled and poignant. “How dare him?!”, she thought.

I made the right decision. I know.

And yes, she did. The damn boy became a smoker and an alcoholic. He changed a lot. And that was the last of it.

That happened last year. December something. And now, both of them have moved on. But no, they didn’t even become friends again. But that was okay. Past is past.

NOTE: This may or may not be a true story. *wink* :))

Labels: love

emBRACE me! yea, you read it right, emBRACE me. get it? LOL. if you did get it, congrats! if you didn't, well it means; i'll be having my braces this week. and yes, i'm scared. yes, i'm excited. yes, i'll look all funny. yes, i'll be getting skinny. yes, i'm nervous.

people will be calling me as "the girl with braces". LOL. cute. haha! i wonder, what'll ii look like? waa. *kaba kaba kaba* *heart beating faster* yikes. some say that getting braces hurts to hell. OMG! but, i'll take that, whatever the circumstances may be, its really final. i'll be having braces. and that's that. help me Lord. waa.

WISH ME LUCK! lots of luck. :))

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i was supposed to upload pictures of our soon-to-be tambayan in the making. but, unfortunetely the laptop seems to not detect the card reader. *sniffles* sayang pre, dami pa namang pics doon, including the macro pics kulot, richard and i took. (btw, its my first time to try macro. and its sooo fun. i'm addicted to photography na. nasa wishlist ko na ang cam. haha!) oh well, i'll post it nexttime. :))

anyway, i had so much fun at our soon-to-be so called tambayan. ket na konti lang kami doon. Benj, Pat, Chard, Kulot, Jean and ii. marami naman din kaming nagawa doon ket papano. may bakod2 na, nakalbo na konti, and etc etc. totally fun! weeee. can't wait till the tambayan's finished. :))

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sobrang saya ko talaga! yang brace-brace na yan? asus. wala yan. masaya parin ako. haha! nagkita kami ni spiderpig. finally! and yes, i did give him a POWER hug. LOL. matagal nanaman kaming magkikita ulit. waaaa. and btw, the song below, he played that kanina. *super kilig* sabi nya kasi, "before ka mag-uwi oh. pakinggan mo muna". ayun. waa. do you want to hear it? anjan sa playlist ko oh. hanapin mo lang. :))

*smiles*

Labels: barkada, kalokohan, love, my life

Where: kwarto ko, harap ng laptop. (masanay ka na, lage nalang ganyn e. LOL)

When: April 20, 2009 @ exactly 10:05pm

Who: ako lang ulit. Haha. (masanay ka narin ulit.)

Why: everyday routine ko na eto e.

What:

Here I am again, and OMG, it’s so damn cold! Summer but it feels more like winter here. Hate it. Totally. Whoever likes changing weather anyway? You wake up in the morning and it’s completely freezing, and by lunch time it’s scorching hot, and again by late afternoon it’s utterly chilly. Who likes that? Who?!

Anyhow, I bought pirated DVD awhile ago. (sorry Sir Edu, I couldn’t control myself, I really want to watch Slumdog Millionaire e.) The pirated DVD has 17movies; Race to Witch Mountain (I already watched it though.), Watchmen, The Two Lovers, Love Me Again, When I Met You, You Changed My Life, Poohkwang, Shaolin Girl, Slumdog Millionaire, Confessions of a Shopaholic (watched it already.),

I watched You Changed My Life this afternoon. Waw. It was nice. Miggy’s so so sweet and thoughtful. The fireworks? The balloons? Everything! So so romantic. Not to mention that he’s so damn cute! Totally! Haha. Anyway, Laida’s always full of energy and humor, she’s so charming. Natatawa ako lage kina Joross, mga baliw. Toynk. I totally laughed out loud with the rain dance thing. Haha!

I didn’t watch Slumdog Millionaire yet, coz spiderpig said na sabay daw namin yun papanuorin. Hihi. Weee. :))

Oh, and btw, binigyan na ako ni Lola ng sweldo kanina. Yey! *cheers* may panglaag nanaman ako. Haha! Just kiddin’ pre, i’m saving my money. :))

P.S I need help with code thingamajigs. Panu maglagay ng comment dito?! “show” man ang nakalagy doon sa comment settings. E bat ganito? Waa. Sensya na pre, first time kasi, ignorante pa ako. Haha. Oh well, to those who can eventually help me, just tag me okay? Thanks. :)) xoxo

NOTE : again, thi was supposed to be posted last night.

Labels: love, nonsense, summer, whatever

Labels: love, survey