I miss playing my violin so badly. :c

I started playing the violin since I was at the age of 10. That was when my family and I were still living in Australia. I was so active then, I attended to every practice at school and I even practice every day at home. I then became part of our school’s string orchestra (big achievement). It was like I only live for my violin. That’s it.

However, when my family and I want back here in the Philippines, I stopped playing. Not because I didn’t want to,( that wouldn’t happen, I love my violin so much, parang boyfriend ko na yun eh. LOL), but because I have no one to play it with; no one to teach me new notes; no more orchestra.

3 months after our arrival here in the Philippines, I still played my violin, but not like the way I played while I was in Australia, and then my violin became out of tune. And that was the last of it. *sniffles*

But today, I reminisced it, and then I seized out my camera and took some pictures of it.

Here they are:

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i'll just include a picture of me. this is when vanity strikes. :)

Naïve + oblivious = me?
Not totally. But sometimes, I just can’t help think about me, being so damn clueless! I mean, yeah, I’m dumb; I trust the people that aren’t supposed to be trusted, I befriend the people that aren’t supposed to be befriended, I hang out with the people that am not supposed to be with, and last but not the least, I LOVE the people who don’t even give a damn about me! Dumb huh? Do you get my point? Pathetic.
I’ve been thinking about this for some time now… And I ask myself, are TRUE FRIENDS supposed to judge you behind your back? Insult you behind your back? Uh-uh. I don’t think so! But, whatever the instances may be, they’re still my friends, and nothing will ever change that(I think). But, somehow, there’s a part of me that’s warning me not to expect good admiration from them no more. *sad* I should have known this would happen. But, I’m a martyr for ???’s cause (I’ll call that person “???” for now). I do that all the time, so I’m pretty used to it now. Immune perhaps.
Is there something ???’s hiding? I wonder what it is. We all wonder what it is. Hope ??? will uncover her true being. No matter what it’ll turn out to be, I guess, I’ll be able to accept it.
To ??? :
I’m not perfect, nobody is, thus I apologize for being imperfect. Know what? I’m ashamed of you. Know what? You’re one of my friends that I loved the most. Know what? I’m hurt. Please, don’t act like you’re perfect, don’t act like you’re not hurting anyone, cause the truth is, many are hurt by YOU. And that includes ME.

P.S Bato bato sa langit, tamaan ‘wag magalit. I’m just sharing my thoughts.