I'm sitting in a room made up of only big white walls And in the hall, there are people looking through The window in the door They know exactly what we're here for
Don't look up, just let them think There's no place else you'd rather be
You're always on display For everyone to watch and learn from Don't you know by now? You can't turn back Because this road is all you'll ever have
And it's obvious that you're dying, dying Just living proof that the camera's lying And oh, oh, open wide, 'cause this is your night So smile, 'cause you'll go out in style You'll go out in style
If you let me, I could I'd show you how to build your fences Set restrictions, separate from the world The constant battle that you hate to fight Just blame the limelight
Don't look up, just let them think There's no place else you'd rather be And now you can't turn back Because this road is all you'll ever have
And it's obvious that you're dying, dying Just living proof that the camera's lying And oh, oh, open wide, 'cause this is your night So smile
Yeah, yeah, you're asking for it With every breath that you breathe in Just breathe it in
Yeah, yeah, well, you're just a mess You do all this big talking So now let's see you walk it I said, let's see you walk it
Yeah, yeah, well, you're just a mess You do all this big talking So now let's see you walk it I said, let's see you walk it
And it's obvious that you're dying, dying Just living proof that the camera's lying And oh, oh, open wide, yeah, oh, oh, open wide Yeah, oh, oh, open wide, 'cause you'll go out in style You'll go out in style
Why: coz I’m on the blog mood. pero sensya ha, taglish na muna. :))
Who: me, myself and ii. And some other people.
What:
Hey there. Have you noticed something? Haha. Yea, I changed my layout. Acknowledgement: Thanks to Ate Kristine Salgados for helping me, to Spiderpig for inspiring me and of course God for letting me exist ‘till this moment. Whew! Kapagud pala magchange ng layout nuh? Lots of editing to do and etc etc. (sorry, first time e, ignorante pa. LOL)
Anyway, I’m satisfied with my current blogskin na, ket sabi pa ni kuya styllix na di masyadong mapansin yung navigation. Bahala na. Kapagod kaya mag-edit. Whew. Tsaka daw, yung music, tanggalin ko raw. Waw naman, kaya ko nga pinili yang blogskin na yan kasi may music e. Duh. Hahaha!
Ui, lam mo ba? Nakita ko siya kahapon, the guy I was referring to dun sa random thoughts. OMG. pinansin nya ako. I didn’t espect that though, as in! All he did was, say “pssst.”, then lingon ako sa kanya, nagwave siya, sabay smile. Asus! Naku. E ako? Nod lang. Haha! Sino ngay siya para bigyan ko ng smile diba? Bwahahaha. Btw, nagadrive ako ng motor that time. Whew!
Lots of things happened today. Naku naku. Pero yung mga importante lang ang ipopost ko ha. Eto yun:
1.Due to tardiness, late nanaman ako nakagising kanina. Mga 7:40am ata yun. At paggising ko, inutusan agad ako ni mama na maglinis ng buong bahay. BUONG bahay yan ha. Btw, may summerjob ako now, ganahan n asana ako magpunta sa tindahan pero ayun, pinalinis man ang bahay sa akin. In the end, tinamad na akong magwork. Ahai. Sayang yung P100.00 na sweldo.
2.Pagkahapon, nag-ayos kami ng tambayan kina Richard. Ako, si Kulot, si Jonarel, si Benj, si Patrick, si Donita (nagvisit lang siya dun, umalis din agad.), at si Richard (always present yan e, tabi lang garud ng bahay nila ang tambayan. Ahaha!). Woo. So far, marami na rin kaming nagawa, may bakod na, tapos nalinisan na namin ang lote. Andami naming plano para sa tambayan, may garden2 pa nga raw eh, may kubo2 pa, tapos lagyan pa raw namin ng swimming pool (who am I kidding? Haha. Joke lang ui, di naming yan maafford. Haha! Perceptibly.) Mga quarter to 5pm, umuwi na ako. Umulan kasi e. Ayun. (yan ang hate ko ditto sa Mindanao, summer na summer, cgeg ulan. Naku!) Oh nga pala, ininvite kami ni Richard sa belated birthday party niya bukas. Woo! Kainan nanaman. Go talaga ako jan. haha!
3.Kanina, after dinner, habang super concentrate ako sa pag edit ng codes, si mama, inutusan kami ng kapatid ko na hanapin daw yung installer CD ng web cam. Naku! Malay ba naming kung saan yun nakalagay? E siya ang humahawak nun e, di ko pa nga yun nakita. Ayun, cge siya yawyaw. Pero duh, atleast kami, gumagalaw, naghahanap talaga kami ng kapatid ko, e siya, andun nakaupo sa couch, at nakatutok sa tebe. Typical. Naku. After ilang beses kong pag ikot sa buong bahay, wala parin. Pero alas! Tumayo narin si mama, pumunta sa kwarto nila, at pagbalik niya sa sala, hawak2 na ang CD. Sabi ko nga, ikaw lang nakakaalam kung san yan. Naku. Mama talaga.
4.Last but not least… (oh baka least na nga. Haha!) Matutulog na ako. Pinagalitan na ako ni spiderpig e, bawal daw magpuyat2. (oo, kinukwento ko eto dahil importante rin eto. Haha!)
Btw, first post ko eto na TagLish nuh? Waw. Well, I supposed, mostly tagalon lang talaga ito. Hihi. I had fun though. Kaenjoy. Haha! ‘till next time.
Tic toc tic toc. I hear the ticking of my watch that’s drawn next to my little tiny ears (spiderpig told me that I have cute and petite ears. *reminiscing*). Tic toc tic toc. Time runs fast though. The last thing I know was I was just walking down one of the not so busy streets of Kabacan, and now, I’m here; lying on my bed, trying to sleep. *closing my eyes* But a teardrop comes out of my chinky-eyes, and then slowly runs down my chubby cheeks. I open my eyes, however another tear rolls down, then another, and another, and another. Hopeless. I’m crying, again! *sniffles*I wanna go to dreamland, where there are no worries, no stress, no tears, no nothing, but only happiness. Oh, I can’t slumber. (Insomnia? You’re kiddin’ me! Not again! I’m sick and tired of insomnia! Hate iiit!) But this time, it isn’t insomnia, I think. It’s more like my heart and brain are having a debate. Yup, a debate, exactly. Weird huh? Tell me about it. They’re so silly. Here’s their debate:
Brain: “Look, tears, she’s crying again. All because of you!”
Heart: “Duh? Me? Shut up! Will you just let her sleep?! Dumb brain!”
Brain: “And will you just let her make the right decisions?! Damn heart!”
Heart: “I am! You’re the one who’s making her baffle!”
Brain: “Well, duh, you keep bugging me every time I try to tell her what to do! You only want her to have happiness, but how about the righteousness?! You’re so full of yourself! Do what’s best for her! Not for yourself! Selfish heart!”
Heart: “Selfish huh? Me? Don’t think so. Take a look at yourself brain! You’re the one who’s making her all mixed up! Let her have her happiness, okay?! She deserves it! She’s already been through many things, you know that. Let her make her own mistakes. Let her be her. Will you? Please?!”
Brain: “How’d you know?! You don’t even know what’s in her brain! And, I’m her brain! You don’t know anything! You don’t have a brain! Moron!”
Heart: “And how’d you know what it feels?! You don’t have a heart! Dimwit!”
Brain: “Get a life! Shut up! If she only agreed with me, she wouldn’t be crying! If she didn’t expect, she wouldn’t be crying now!
Heart: “Let her cry, okay? That’ll only last for minutes. But happiness will last much longer, a lifetime. So let her be.”
Brain: “You have a point now. But if she cries again, you’ll be sorry!”
Heart: I hope spiderpig won’t make her cry again…
I hope so too. *sigh* Anyway, Heart wins this round. The next round? I dunnow, Brain says that Heart will be sorry. (ano ako? Referee? LOL)
Anyhow, I learned a lot from their debate. (I’m not crying anymore.) Spiderpig and I are okay now. *cheers* *smiles* And finally, I’ll be able to snooze into dreamland. zZzZzZz
P.S Looking at the brightside, at least Liver, Lungs, and Kidney didn’t join their debate. That’ll be ridiculous. But fun. Lots of fun. LOL.
P.S2 And oh, if you’re wondering who’s “spiderpig”.. Well, I can’t tell you. So keep wondering. LOL :))
Things I want to do before getting married or having kids (whatever) :
1.Bungee Jumping! (and scream ‘till my lungs drop out! woo)
2.Scuba Diving! (Under water adventure!)
3.Mountain Climbing! (i want to climb mt. apo! Weee)
4.Hot Air Balloon Riding! (I’m not scared of heights. Nakakalula lang kasi minsan. I get dizzy. Haha)
5.Zip Riding! (yiiiiaaaah! Especially the one in Digos City.)
6.Ride the best roller coaster rides ever made in the whole world! (kinda ambisyosa, ayt? Libre lang bitaw mangarap. LOL)
7.Take a walk at the top of the Sydney Harbor Bridge! (that’s possible. I’ve seen it. Waa!)
8.Go to the best theme parks worldwide! (Gotta save money for that. Lots and lots of money. Whoooa. Help me. LOL)
9.Try motocross! (try lang gud. Haha!)
10.Hug a tiger! (I’m serious!)
11.Ride on a dolphin! (I’ve seen them, and they’re incredibly cute!)
12.Go surfing! (yeeeeeep! its soooo cool!)
13.Snowboarding! (if only there’s snow in the Philippines *sigh*)
14.Build a snowman! ( snow snow snow ! I demand snow in the Philippines! Now na! LOL)
15.Swim at the middle of the ocean! (pero I’ve gotta have a companion, you know, incase i drown unexpectedly. I’m not a good swimmer. haha)
16.Jump off a cliff! (Then dive right into an ocean or lake. Ouch!)
17.Go on a ghost hunt! (comrades? A must! Wooo)
18.Ride on one of those thingamajigs that are called “Big Drop”! (you know, the ride that takes you 100ft above the ground then suddenly drops you so fast. I wanna try that! Haha!)
19.Ice skating! (and I’ll do some of those twirly twirl jumps, even if it means falling down and embarrassing myself. So desperate huh? Toynk)
20.Go horseback riding! (along the sea shore would be so nice!)
-> Have you ever felt like you have nothing else to do but understand? Yeah, understand till death. I dunnow why I’m like this; you do bad things to me, but a little sorry will soften my heart, and I’ll forgive you as soon as possible. Uh-uh. A slight sign of sweetness, and I won’t be mad no more. Hopeless. Then other people abuse this so called attitude of mine. They’ll hurt me again and again and again, but I’ll forgive as soon as they apologize, and when I forgive them, they’ll hurt me again. It’s a cycle. A never ending cycle. Of my life. So typical. How come? Don’t ask me, coz I dunnow either. That’s just me, I guess. And how my life goes.
->Another thing is, I’m a martyr. Making sacrifices? My kind of hobby. Dunnow how. Dunnow why. If you ask me, I’ll just roll my eyes on you, so don’t ask. Slap me? Go for it. I don’t mind. I’ve been wanting to be slapped all my life. So, go on. Go! *tuuuugsh* (thanks.)
->I haven’t seen him for a long time, haven’t heard anything about him too. No communication; no texts, no email, no chat, no nothing. I wonder how he is now. What does he look like now? What is he now? You know, I mean, is he still the guy I met before or have he changed? Do you get my point? Hmm. Memories? The only thing that’s left for us. Karma will eventually get him. Bwahahaha!
->(Looking at the night sky.) Oh, it’s a full moon again. So bright. *sigh* I feel tranquility when I gaze at it. You know, one of my dream dates would be just staring at the night sky, waiting for a falling star to wish upon, and just talk, talk and talk. Romantic huh? Like that’ll happen. Duh. In my dreams, maybe! *sigh* again (wait, I’ll be daydreaming for awhile.)
