Dear Diary,
Reminiscing. That's what this day is all about. Yep, him, again. Dunnow why though, dunnow how. But, someway, somehow, he just keeps on popping into my mind.
Confused? Me? Yea, you bet. Is this even normal? I mean, I keep on thinking about him; without me even wanting to. It's over between the two of us. OVER. I mean, I am over him, throughly over him. To make that much clear, I already love someone else. So why is it like this? It's like, like that. Boom! He's in my mind, again. Then boom, he's gone. Then boom, he's back. Aaaarrrrgggghhh. It makes me dizzy, it makes me crazy! Damn it! Will you get outta my mind?! Please?!
Don't quite get my point yet? Well, okay okay, I'll tell you what exactly happened today.
Like many or almost all the other Pilipinos out there, I also watched Manny “Pacman” Pacquiao's fight with Ricky “Hitman” Hatton. And yes, I cheered for him, who wouldn't anyway? He's undoubtly a Pinoy pride that everyone must be proud of! Ayt? Well, back to the point, I remembered damn boy because of Pacman's fight. Why? Coz every time Pacman has a fight, damn boy and I will have a bet, I will always bet for Pacman, and he'll always bet for Pacman's enemy. But the truth is, he wants to bet for Pacman, he just bets for his enemy for my sake. That has been a tradition for the both of us for the almost 2 years that we've been together (21months to be exact).
Then, after the fight which obviously, Pacman won, I watched One More Chance which has always been my all time favorite movie. Not because this movie makes me remember damn boy, oh no no, but because i've learned a lot from it; accepting break ups, heart breaks and the kind. But, what I always remember from this movie is the rule about break ups; the 3 months rule. In that specific rule, ex couples are not allowed to have a new bf/gf within the 3 months right after they're break up. Makes sense right? Well, even before our break up, damn boy told me that we if ever we break up, we should have that exact rule. And we did. Well, I did, actually. He didn't follow that rule. We didn't even break up yet, but then, he had another girl. Damn.
The other thing that made me think of him is the song, Forevermore. It was played in Singing Bee. I hate that show from now on! LOL. Just kidding. Well, let's stick to the topic. That song is my song, dedicated to damn boy. I never thought that i'd be right for him when we became a couple. I never thought he'd court a girl like me. I never thought he'd love me.
But, no, a big no, like I said before. I also never thought that he'd break my heart;that he'd fool me. I loved him to dearly for me to think that thought. He said promises; that he won't leave me, he won't lie to me, he won't hurt me. But all of those, yes, all of those were nothing but broken promises. Promises are made to be broken, right? I never believed in that saying before, but now, I do, it's more like a motto to me now. I learned a lot from him, our break up made me more matured; stronger; more dedicated to God. I guess, I became a better person because of that, because of him. And maybe, that's why God took him away from me, because I was making him my world; the center of all my attention, when from the very start, God is supposed be that person; the one whom we all must give our attention. And now, if ever i'll be in a new relationship; a new commitment, i'll put God first, i'll make God the center of our relationship. I'll love God much more this time...
xoxo,
the girl with the love story
